Shreika

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times; it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness; it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity; it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness; it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair; we had everything before us, we had nothing before us; we were all going directly to Heaven, we were all going the other way."-Tales Of Two Cities(Charles Dickens) These past few weeks have all been weeks that blogging would have been convenient for me to vent but due to the deficiency of internet access and the lack of sleep I was able to obtain I have not been able to.I begin to see that life is similar to rollercoasters it has it's high and it's low.The first week was definitely Shreika my life took an almost 90 degree angle drop and it appear from nowhere.I remember every exact detail of that night and all the emotions that erupted from the dormant volcano.The anger,worry and the fastest heartbeat that exceeded any drummer on a drumline and was visible to the human eye from a distance.That night will forever be imprinted to my mind.After that drop the ride began to escalate but then took another devasting fall.A vital piece of information was brought to mind which cause a substantial amount of internal pain.Pain that I would like to evade but was unable to do due to the source of the pain also being the source to my happiness. Similar to Edward situation with Bella his love for her made it impossible for him to live without her even through all the pain she cause him with the scent of her blood.It was better to live with her through the pain then to live without her without pain.Which is exactly the type of situation that I have unearth myself from.Maybe in the distant future I will become immune to this pain but as for now I will manage.The feeling that humans gain from a rollercoaster when they believe that worst has already past is awesome a feeling of achievment that you survive it without a yellow trail going down your pants.That feeling is awesome until that it is brought to your attention that the worst is nowhere close to being concluded and you find yourself falling an actual 90 degree angle with horrific twirls as it speed towards the bottomless pit that seems like it never ends.Life comes at you fast but I have come to the realization that you will always reach the apex again.One of the few things that I recalled from chemistry is potential and kinetic energy.At the apex of the rollercoaster potential energy is abundant and the rollercoaster drops and it then runs on kinetic energy.That's where my rollercoaster is at the current moment but always realize that the amount of that kinetic energy will always be bountiful enough for it to reach the top again.So even through the worst of times I have an optimistic point of view that things will always become better no matter what the situation so Shreika could inhale profusely on that.